Friday last week, I had a long and rather emotional conversation with a 'friend' who I have been attracted to and with whom I felt was a real cutie for almost 2 years.
I had finally booked tickets to come up and see the friend in Brisbane for the first time in real life and stay the weekend (of which is this weekend coming up now).
But the problem I found out on Friday was the friend was seeing someone else of which "sparks were flying" between them especially since they weren't in different states (such is the situation with me and 'the friend').
So meanwhile, back at the Friday conversation, it was an emotional night to kick start my weekend and was embarassingly fuelled further by the fact I was crying in a public internet cafe for I was let out of work early from a computer update office-wide.
The break off had been announced and because of the very nature of the hurt suffered, I had announced that friendship was not to even continue.
Tonight, I have just been advised that he (yes, by this stage readers, it is illustrating my orientation) has now broken up with his guy he was dating so I am baffled and experiencing many mixed emotions.
Should I still go up and meet this special, but cheating, spunk since tickets have already been paid for etc. - furthermore, foolishly for affection, I have organised for airfares up this weekend coming and fortnights time weekend - or should I stand my grand especially since distance is now suddenly a problem?
Half a year ago, he was really into me but from his view on the events, it came off as though I had problems with the distance and didn't want to make things progress. After attempts to get the second chance, I thought one had been given to start afresh but, as per above, things went array.
